I am told that I am now a 1 year survivor from breast cancer... I guess so, tho' I don't know that that word fits, for me anyway. I did indeed fight the beast and I won, simple as that! I had others before me battle it too, some won and some didn't. My sister Kim, the Middle Sister was one who fought with her heart and soul for 2 1/2 years but the beast claimed that battle. My cousin Maureen also fought and lost too, just last year. My friend Dawn also fought but she is one that won her battle as well and is now a 2 1/2 year survivor! Way to go girl!
I learned life lessons from these three women that helped me in my fight with cancer. I am told that I have amazed some people. Others have said that I was too tough to not beat it while others still tell me how inspired they feel because of the attitude and strength I showed. When I was first diagnosed with cancer it was very hard for me to believe that God would do this to my mom again; then one day I discovered that it was merely a wake up call to me, no actually to both my husband and me. We both have a need to have control of things, not so much each other's lives, but just life in general. Having a daughter with Down syndrome, I really am in control of most of the decisions in her life and I guess this sort of bleeds into all facets of my life. Anyway, this wake up call was a reminder to me of WHO is really in charge of everything; and so, God didn't do this to my mom, but just wanted to make sure I realized that I don't walk alone or lead, and that He is there with me every step of the way.
I guess I have inspired others but the most important one that I had hoped to inspire is my oldest sister, Jeni, and she showed me that I did just that the other day. You see, she was angry that I got cancer instead of her, she had been waiting for it. I let her know that it had to be this way though because I had to show her how to get through it, and now the fear of the beast isn't as great as it once was.
She thinks that I am her hero but in reality, it has always been the other way around. I could never have done it without the help of having two older sisters to show me the way... Love you sisters-
I learned life lessons from these three women that helped me in my fight with cancer. I am told that I have amazed some people. Others have said that I was too tough to not beat it while others still tell me how inspired they feel because of the attitude and strength I showed. When I was first diagnosed with cancer it was very hard for me to believe that God would do this to my mom again; then one day I discovered that it was merely a wake up call to me, no actually to both my husband and me. We both have a need to have control of things, not so much each other's lives, but just life in general. Having a daughter with Down syndrome, I really am in control of most of the decisions in her life and I guess this sort of bleeds into all facets of my life. Anyway, this wake up call was a reminder to me of WHO is really in charge of everything; and so, God didn't do this to my mom, but just wanted to make sure I realized that I don't walk alone or lead, and that He is there with me every step of the way.
I guess I have inspired others but the most important one that I had hoped to inspire is my oldest sister, Jeni, and she showed me that I did just that the other day. You see, she was angry that I got cancer instead of her, she had been waiting for it. I let her know that it had to be this way though because I had to show her how to get through it, and now the fear of the beast isn't as great as it once was.
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